The inside me is bleeding and crying right now. Nothing other than relationship. The care, the love, the tender-ness, the security are all fading each and everyday or am I being too sensitive over and over again. Why I am the only one feeling sad lately but not the partner? The bitterness in me have risen tremendously each day. Why? I have been questioning myself all over and over again. The independent and strong side of me have decrease. Is my relationship going to wilt soon? Like a rose? Which can only survive for days or by watering them it could stay on for extra few more days only? no~. i wish my relationship could go on and describe as a cactus :(
- written on 14 Nov 2009.
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Today, I guess I felt better after sleeping it off? but i didn't get enough of sleep that i wanted due to my sisters' weird kind of snoring. It just annoys me especially when she is just sleeping right beside me as my cousin is here sleeping with us so we have to sleep side by side so close to each other. Any my lil' cousin.... bang our room door once................. I was wide awake after that. SUCKS!!!!!!!!! Oh wells, his my cousin anyways, just tolerate la....

Last night, went to Chung Hua for a dinner of the Life-Long association so sad we dint manage to get the lucky draws prizes. The biggest prize is the refrigerator and bicycle. But I love the double slow cook or something. We can actually make full use of it though. It's okay! I've got $250/- for claiming 5 A's from IBS COLLEGE !!!!!!! I love that... the sense of achievement are there, when they call upon your name they will call along your parents name and tell how much you achieve. I love the way it is, so for those who look down on me. go eat shyt. HAHAHA! ;) super harsh but oh wells, I AM A GRADUATE. though its a DIPLOMA only i dont mind. at least I HAVE something. and i am working for almost 3 months already. Glad that I am happy with my job at the moment :) Don't feel like leaving this company at the moment though. SUper flexible hours and super near my place. NOT MUCh politics. yeah! speaking of all these money stuffs, my car repair still owing a hundred plus.. so i gotta clear it.. and MY LAPPIE motherboards' condemn :( I have to spend like 300-400 to get it repair. it's all money. sighs! FOR those whom are still studying, appreciate your time studying and enjoy all u want before stepping into the working world, it's just so tiring and everything is about money.

Boyfriend and close ones went to watch the Barracudas match last night and watched the late show of 2012.. boyfriend left me behind at KB. I am cool with that despite of all the emo things which he kinda ignored? hahah. I am alright as long he have fun can already... about the forgetting me part .. he gotta pay for it today and get punishment for today :) I am cruel yes.! I am not a lady who can be easily bullied. Go on talk about me behind, I DONT FUCKING CARE. SEE THAT !! ..

Lately, have been really pissed or should I say disappointed. "Friends" changed and its' just so not appropriate. I don't know what to do but just to accept? that's what friends are for? oh my.. some people don't take you as friends but take you for granted so why treat them good right? LOL. whatever ~~~

Can't wait for my KK and Phils trip which is exactly 1 more month from todays date!!!! WHEeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee... holiday please come come come faster... :))

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